Can't Stand Myself

I continue to do well. The vitamin D is a 5,000 mg dose. I'm having some side affects. Stomach problems, loose bowel and, I believe, I STINK.

Yes, I smell myself. Others say, they don't smell me. I DO!!!!

Taking showers, covering myself in lotion....nothing helps.

I'm hoping this gets better. I have to take these pills, once a week for two months. I can't stand myself.

What to do?

Joy!!!

My joy is overwhelming.

I got my blood work back yesterday and am amazed. I am not in a flare. As a matter of fact, my lupus markers are still suppressed. Thank you God.

All these symptoms are from a vitamin D deficiency. All the symptoms. Is that remarkable. The symptoms mimicked Lupus.

I can not thank God enough. Truly, His healing five years ago continues. Even when I wavered and fell under the delusion that the Lupus was back, God was faithful and kept me safe from myself.

Thank you God.

There is no one like our God. His faithfulness endures forever.

Fear

Do you fear Lupus? My child, "I have not given you a spirit of fear".

I have never gone into fear over my diagnosis. It,Lupus, will not break my spirit,nor define my life. It is but a "thorn in my side". I will remember my vulnerability, because of it, but will not succumb to its rules.

I will live above the nature of Lupus and live, only with the Word of God. That is what defines me for the Word says, I am "Wonderfully and perfectly made". This is the truth and it is what I live by.

Some would say, "How foolish". "You live in a dream and ignore the reality." My answer is that this place is just a stop over to eternity and my lot here is "Nothin but a thing."

I will live above Lupus and glorify the Lord. Lupus will not distract me, nor take me from my purpose on this earth. Through it, Lupus, God has spoke to many, so things are not as they appear. "In all things, I will glorify the Lord."

So, when you are flaring or taking another test. Sing to the Lord, He is your comfort. Pray for that peace, that goes beyond all understanding, and you will find it. Believe, in the mighty power, of the Living God and He will deliver you from the fear of the disease called Lupus.

Free from the Grip of Death

It has been a week since I saw the doctor and I still have not heard a word from him. No news on my test results. I suppose that is good, but I am curious.

I feel wonderful though. Last Thursday, I got prayer from my small group and feel I was delivered from a spirit of death. I believe that I had just decided I was going to die and was just going to succumb to it.

The prayer was amazing and full of love. My deliverance complete. My spirit is so much lighter and my body feel light and painless. I am very happy.

Apple Cider Vinegar

I went to the doctor today. Weird!!! The decision on new medications was put off. They took six vials of blood to see where I am at, because I have seen some improvement over the last week and the reason is soooo weird.

Apple cider vinegar. YEP!!! That is what I said. Apple cider vinegar.

My husband has serious sinus problems and I read where apple cider vinegar would help. So, I started him on a drink made up of the vinegar, honey and Stevia. He hated the taste so bad, that I drank it with him. You know, like showing your children that the medicine is not so bad. Well, I found that the swelling in my mouth went down to nearly nothing, my reaction to chemicals stopped and I had more energy. Is that weird.

Well, I am grateful. I still do not know what the blood nor urine will show, but the doctor said that Vinegar is an anti-inflammatory as well as the Noni that I have been taking and to keep it up. We will see about the blood test.

I thank God for His hand on nature. I use to not think much about holistic medicine. But, I have certainly changed my mind. I will be looking at more natural remedies now. Everything we need has been put into place by God and I just need to look for it. Thank you, God.

So many have been praying for me and for that I am so grateful. God plots out our every step and I find comfort there. Where He leads, I will follow. Whatever comes next, I will find God in it and rely on Him for my strength.