Confused

Well, it's Sunday and I'm still in pain. Don't feel much like going to church. Have not made that decision yet.

When I was first diagnosed with Lupus, I had a lot of things happen to me that confuse where I'm at now.

My thyroid quit working. The doc's say that is because the Lupus killed it. I started going through the change. I gained weight.

Before and after weight gain:


All this happened together. So, now, I have no idea what was caused by the Lupus and what is just from getting old and going through so many changes.

Do I hurt because I have aged or do I hurt from fibromyalgia. Am I stiff from the same. Confusing. Maybe, it is just because it is cold. All I do know is I hurt and I am getting tired of it.

Fighting Symptoms

Every since I started this blog, I have had to fight the pain of Fibromyalgia. I have not had symptoms for years. I can only believe that it is an attack from Satan to stop me from writing this blog.

There must be someone out there who will be healed or find comfort in this blog.

I come against this attack in the power of the name of Jesus Christ. I will not fall for this scheme and will continue to walk in the path that Christ has put me on.

If you, also, need prayer, just leave me a post on the prayer link in the upper right hand corner of this blog.

If God is with you, who can come against you.

Natural Remedy

I found this article on the web. Natural Lupus Remedy.

I had never been much into natural remedies before, but, last year I had a hysterectomy and was put on hormones. I really had trouble with the hormones. I could not think, felt emotional and attacked by everyone. A friend told me to take Black Cohose. What an amazing difference it made. No hot flashes and I could think.

So, after that experience, I am pro natural remedies. This is a good article and I know how important it is to stay healthy. Whatever it takes to stay off steroids.

Christmas Trials

When I was so terribly sick and it would be Christmas, I would wonder if this would be my last Christmas.

My mind would encompass thoughts of my children and husband and all they would do when I was gone. I would weep over my children's youth and pray for longer time on this earth. Christmas was hard.

I struggled to make Christmas the way it would be if I was not ill. To continue in the traditions of the past. Cooking, wrapping, shopping were all so difficult. But, I was determined to make each Christmas special to my family.

For those of you with these lingering thoughts and fear, I say you are right to continue to make things as normal as possible. It is good for you and for your family. But, for those of you who can't, because you are to ill, I say keep your spirits as joyous as possible. This is good for you and for your family.

It is important to keep joy in your heart. To dig deep down into your spirit and live in the moment with happiness. It can be so hard, but, to keep that positive outlook will create positive effects.

Christmas is the time of year to celebrate new beginnings. The birth of Jesus was a new beginning that took the world into hope and strength. You my friend, can include yourself in this time of new beginnings and find that hope and strength.

My attitude during those trying Christmas days, was one of leaving my depressing thoughts and focusing outside of myself. I, enjoyed celebrating Christ' birth and new beginnings with my family. Seeing the world through a veil of sickness fades the color of joy. My friend that veil can only be lifted through the promises of Jesus Christ. Seeing the world through His eyes will bring you the joy to overcome your circumstance and rejoice over what God is doing all around you.

Have a merry, merry Christmas and may God's gift of healing be yours.

Yesterday, I woke to horrible pain. I have not had a fibromyalgia pain in years. I'd forgotten all bad it can be.

Not only is your body in turmoil but, your brain quites working as well. It was an all day thing. Today is much better.

I fight any symptom or day like yesterday, with prayer. I have been healed by Christ, so, I believe, that these days, like yesterday, are a scheme to get me thinking I'm ill again. So, I fight the good fight of truth.

I call to my God and stand on His promises. I, always, rebound into health. I have learned not to ponder the way I feel nor to let my body drag my mind down. I continue to praise God and believe.

Today, I praise God that I continue to walk in my healing. I am determined to not let go of the healing that I have received from God.

God is good. Dear reader, I would love to pray for you. Just leave me a note. I have a link in the top right corner of this site for you to list your prayer request.

Love to all who read this post and may God be with you.

My story

In 2001 I was diagnosed with Lupus. It was quite frightening. I'd only been a Christian a few years & was having some difficulty understanding. I had begun to walk in the Healing ministry & had seen God heal a few people by using me, but, here I was ill.

Lupus is a strange Illness. I did my research & realized I was in trouble. "Lean upon the Lord". That is all I had. There is no cure for Lupus & it is a try & see with maintaining your health.

A few months after I was diagnosed I got fluid on my heart. This caused the Doctors to put me on steroids. Now, the Lupus had already messed up my thyroid so I had gained weight, but, with the steroids I gained 150 pounds. I had always been thin, sometimes to thin - this was difficult for me. Not, difficult in the esteem department, difficult for me to carry around. So, I ended up on a cane.

God told me one night that I would be sick for two years. This was good news - not knowing if he meant I'd be dead or healed- either way it was good news. But, I forgot this word from God in the mist of the pain, test & weariness.

I ended up taking 30 pills a day. After the diagnosis of Lupus, I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, asthma, irritable bowel, acid reflects, skin writing syndrome, arthritis, - there's more but, can't remember. It left me with brain damage & autoimmune of the inner ear. I was so terribly sick.

In all of this God continued to use me. I my counseling practice people continued to be healed through the laying on of hands, inner healings, deliverance, & prayer. Their faith that God still worked through me says a lot about God's grace. Those people & my church prayed for me daily. My pastor layed hands on me every Sunday. It was a long hard two years.

My doctor was at a loss. He is a good Christian man. He told my husband & I that he had never seen someone get so sick so fast. We would go to see him & get bad news but, my husband & myself would not take it to heart. I would never claimed the illness. If asked what was wrong with me, I would say that I'd been diagnosed with Lupus. Never took it to be mine. If my thoughts went to the negative I would, "Catch every thought to the obedience of God" & throw that thought out. I'd replace it with praise to the Almighty Living God. You can't have a bad thought when you are in praise of the Lord.

Finally, the Doctor said, we only have one more thing we can do for you. That is chemotherapy.
Oh, I did not want that. My body was so torn up, run down, beat up - I didn't think I could take much more.

Tight after this, without my knowledge, 8 friends- including my husband- went on a forty day fast & prayer for me. I kept trying to get my husband to eat. I had no idea what they were doing. On the second week I, praise be to God, came out of the Lupus. Healed, I was Healed.

God in His great mercy Healed me. The doctor said it is a miracle. He had never seen such a come back. But, he would not say I was healed nor in remission. Just that he was amazed. The witness it gave to the church & others was huge. There was no other explanation except supernatural healing from the Living God.

It was 2 years that I was sick. Just like God had said. 2 years. Now, 2 years after that, I get a medical report from my doctor. He had taken blood work & found the the Lupus markers in my body are suppressed. No Lupus. He now believes I am a walking miracle.

I am a walking miracle. I speak of this often & if Satan tries to make me disbelieve I say "I'm not falling for that. I am Healed". "No weapon formed against me will prosper." I believe that if we keep our eyes on God, that if we hold on to, that we are "wonderfully & perfectly made", that if we have faith that God can & will do anything, that God is the same yesterday, today & tomorrow, that you will see the hand of God move.

Faith is everything. Build your faith. Hold firm to the promises of God. I do, I will, I can.

Why a blog about Lupus

My dear friend,

I have created this blog to offer you support and encouragement as you walk the lonely and long walk with Lupus. It will be a place where you can share thoughts, pain, and celebration. I understand the feelings that you are having because, I too, have been diagnosed with Lupus. But, my story has turned out wonderfully.

I have been healed by the name of Jesus Christ from Lupus. I intend to share my experience of healing with you and pray for your healing.

One of the reasons I have started this blog is that a lot of you readers have been searching through the Internet for Christian healing of Lupus. I have another blog Supernatural Christian where many of you have come to find your answer. This blog will be totally dedicated to you and your needs.

I am for you, not against you. I am dedicating myself to your needs. You are the most important subject of this blog.

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