Noni

The Noni worked incredibly well on my chest pain. I just take a tablespoon in the morning and one at night. In two days my pain was gone.

I am not going to go off of it to prove that it is the Noni that has caused my relief. That is what my husband has purposed. I am just believing that God had me find the information on Noni and it works.

The Noni does not take away all my pain, but I do believe that it has taken away a lot of the swelling in my ligaments so the pain is reduce. Well, in my chest it is gone. I did notice that if I am late in taking the Noni, I begin to feel a bit of tightening in my chest. Maybe, that is prof enough for my husband.

I suggest you give it a try if you have pain. I got mine at Walmart and it is not expensive.

So, I thank God for His wisdom and grace in leading me to Noni. Praise you Father.

Just one more Thing

I have a diagnosis. Costochondritis. What??? Oh, yea!!! Isn't that a fun name.

If you want to learn more or understand this one, here is a link.

The pain is horrible. Sometimes, it is so extreme, that I can't walk. When I take a step it just drives the pain through my body.

I have started a herbal substance for pain relief. It is called Noni. I hope it works, because the pain medication has stopped working and if I go for stronger medicine, I will not be able to function at all. Although, sleep is good, when you hurt this bad.

God is so good, all this is drawing me closer to Him. I can only depend on Him to provide for me. To sustain me, to deliver me, to heal me. I have a great God, who I can call upon, at anytime, and He will comfort me.

Thank you God.

Still Waiting

Saw the Doctor on Friday. But, no news. Did another ekg and then ex-rays. Hopefully, I will find out, something, today.

Turns out, that when I went to the hospital, they gave me a pain mediciene, that is the strongest pain medicine know to man. It certainly worked. But, only for a short time. Now they have me on Percecet. I sleep a lot and am no good as posting.

I am copying some of what I wrote today on my other blog, because, I am way to droggy to spell or think right. I hope what I wrote shows some of where I am at right now.


If this does not make a lot of sense, it is because I am still on some heavy pain medicine. First, thank all of you for your response to my last post. I was over joyed with the love that poured out from my brother and sisters. Many even came over from my daughters blog, A Homesteading Neophyte, to encourage me. I am so grateful.

I saw my doctor on Friday and still do not know anything. She just put me on stronger pain medicine. So, I sleep a lot. Then I wake up and the pain is too much, so I take a pill and sleep. I have, however, been doing a lot of crocheting. But, I find my self waking up, frozen in time, in the middle of a stitch.

The Christian response to my flare up of Lupus has been diverse. Some say, "it is an attack from Satan". Some, just except it as part of living in this world. Others, believe I need to search myself for a sin. Then there are the ones who see it as a trial.

As to it being an attack, could be. My ministry is growing again and I usually start to have trouble when that happens. There was something in my house yesterday. It was visible not only to me, but to my husband, which is unusual. It showed itself several times. My thought, at first, was that, it was my medicine causing me to see things, but when my husband saw it, I knew different. But, is this because of an attack? I see, feel and smell things a lot. Could be something besides an attack. Need to pray to find out about this thing in my home.

Is the flare up of Lupus just because we live in a fallen world. This could be also. The cause of Lupus is not really known. They have their suspicions, but no real answers. I may be genetically disposed to Lupus. Which could be a curse. Of course, many, including myself, have prayed to break a curse of Lupus. But, have not seen the results of that breaking. Whether, it be from the environment, genetics or self inflicted abuse of my body, this world has a lot to offer in the way of sickness and pain. But, through the power of God these things are overcomed.

Is it a sin? I, always, have sin. Why, would this be from a sin, now. In the past, God has always shown me a sin that needs to be addressed. When the sin is exposed, God and I usually take care of it and I walk free from that particular sin. So, why would one sin be treated any different from the other. God always has my attention, He talks to me, this should be no different. Now that I write this, I realize that I have not even asked God "why".

The last time, I was sick, He did not give me a "why". He just told me that I would be sick of two years. I did not know if I would die after those two years or be healed. But, it was two years and I never did ask "why". Do, I need to know "why"? I don't think I do. The out come of the last time was amazing. God used Lupus, to minister in amazing ways. Ways that would not have been possible before Lupus. So, I'm not sure I'll be asking "why".

Is, this reacourance of Lupus a trail? Well, I don't know. If I don't ask, then, I don't know. God, pretty much knows, that I am His, no matter what. But, I never exactly, know the mind of God. After all, His ways are not my ways.

So, with all the different theories and suggestions, I listen, pray and ponder and then let God be God in my life. I do fight, because, I am not one to take anything lying down. But, I also, try to walk the path that God has laid out before me with dignity and peace.

Well, my hour is up. You see, dear reader, I have one hour from the time I wake up till the medicine and pain over take me and I am lost to this world. I hope this post makes sense to you. I understand it completely. Of course, I am living in a different zone than you might be. My world is a bit blurred right now.

I am totally blessed by you, my dear readers.

Hospital Visit

Last night, I had to go to the emergency room with chest pain. I hate it that with Lupus, so much of the time, they can not find any reason for your pain.

At least, my heart was not involved.

I have to see my doctor today for follow-up, because, if the pain is front fluid around the heart, it was to soon to show up on the ex-ray.

What I believe it is, is swollen ligaments and tendons in my rib cage. My pain is horrible. Truly need relief. Any ideas out there?

My Inner Ear

Last night, before I went to bed, I noticed I had a bright red spot on my face. I have not seen one of those for several years. I felt pretty disappointed and it is still there this morning. But, I will be extremely happy, if this thing on my face, does not get any bigger or spread.

I am having some trouble with my inner ear. I have autoimmune inner ear disease. It came about from the Lupus. The Lupus attack the mechanism in my ear that keeps the fluid, in my ear level. This causes me to be dizzy. Very dizzy. But, for the last few years, I have not had any trouble.

Now, it would seem, it is back. I will be just sitting around, minding my own business, when suddenly the room will take off. It will spin violently. Or I may feel like I am floating. This all can, also, cause me to be confused.

Back then, I was sent to see a vertigo specialist. He put me on a low dose water pill, which, after a while, helped. I suppose, I need to go and see him again. But, going back to see him feels like I am giving into this attack. Going backwards some how.


I seek the Lord on this flare up. Waiting for a word or vision on why, this is all coming back on me. But, I refuse to linger in the pit of Lupus. I will keep my eyes on God, doing His work and not giving up.

A Question of Ethics

This article that I'm posting is about a breakthrough in research into mitochondrial DNA research. They may have found a way to manipulate DNA by using 3 embryo from three different parents. This manipulation could lead to a cure for autoimmune disease.

I read the article and was a bit uneasy. I questioned myself. Is this manipulation ethically wrong? Are we messing where we should not be? Are we playing with life? Would I take a drug designed from the embryo's of three different parents?

My answer to the last question was. "Yes". Then why ask the first set of questions?

Click here for the article.

Cold Feet

Always concerned about my cold foot, I found this article "The Chill Factor" that talks about Raynaud's Disease. It is a good read.

I did, however, I believe, figure mine out. A talk with my doctor eased my mine. It appears to be a nerve problem. I was in fear it was my heart.

Caretaking

I am still going up and down. Went to church Sunday feeling great, but by midday pain had set in and I broke down and took pain medication.

My mother lives with me. She has Alzheimer’s and is in the middle stage. It is such a struggle, at times. Well, a lot of the time. My mother is a very self centered woman and that has not stopped with the onset of Alzheimer’s. She has become quite demanding.

Right now, she has a swollen wrist and hand. I enlisted my daughter to help me and we took her to the doctor today. No broken bones, just incredibly swollen. She is suppose to just rest the hand and wait to see if it gets better. The outcome of this trip to the doctor was, she has become more helpless.

The thing is, when she thinks you are not looking, she is not in the least bit helpless. Then the problem is with me. There are times when I just don't have the energy to cater to her. She said to me the other day, "I know you hurt, but I need you go to the kitchen and get me food." I made her wait, but was stunned at her callousness. This is not new behavior nor a result of the Alzheimer’s. She has always been like this.

One day, if she lives, I will, more than likely have to put her in a nursing home. I, do not look forward to that day. Even though, our relationship is hard, at least for me, I find the act of putting her in a nursing home difficult. I know the time is coming. It will likely be because I can not take care of her anymore.

Sometimes, I look forward to be alone with my husband and other times I feel guilt thinking this way. I'm sure this is all so very normal. So, I pray to God for His wisdom and peace in this coming decision. Leaning on Him, I pray for understanding and compassion in my current situation. I know I am learning lessons from God in this time and I struggle through this time knowing that on the other end, God's lessons will bless me.

For now, I keep my mother near and try to make her life comfortable and loving. It is a trail for me to not take on selfish thinking and to not become bitter. So, I will, give those kinds of feelings and thoughts over to God for Him to do with them the right and wish thing.