Wish I felt better. But, Oh Well

I wish I could say "I fell better", but that would be a lie.

It would seem with Lupus, you never know what is around the next corner.

Always a surprise. I, now, have been getting bumps, not a rash, on my face and arms. They kind of look like hives, but do not itch very much. The day after I get them, the bumps have a small scab on them. I have no idea what this is about.

My pain, except for my ribs, is horrible, at times and the stiffness is awful. Brain fog has become all to familiar and my spiral into the depths of sickness seems unstoppable.

But, I find comfort in my Lord and have constant communion with Him. He is my strong tower.

My ministry to others has pick up and this helps me to keep my mind off of the Lupus. Helps me to not be defined by the disease. I am a child of God, not a body who goes by Lupus. I am wonderfully and perfectly made.

I have been busy crocheting. Love to crochet. Such fun. Here is my latest project.

Pretty happy about the way it turned out.

There seems to be lots of activities in my life that help to keep my mind off of what is happening to my body. So much better than laying around thinking about it. Life is and can be good.

crochet & Noni

Well, Praise God for natural remedies.

I forgot to take the Noni yesterday and found out it truly does work. By midday my pain was back. I realized that I had not taken the Noni and am now back on it and the pain is again gone.

I continue to do pretty well. Can't say that this thing has me down. My ministry is growing and I keep my eyes on God, not on Lupus.

My daughter and I have started a new business. We are starting out in my home, to try and build a clientele and then, hopefully open a store front. We make everything we sell from scratch.

My daughter is a homesteader. She is making breads, pastries, noodles,etc. and I crochet. I make anything. Right now, I have purses, baskets, shawls and a few other items. Below are some pictures of our first day we opened.

We did pretty good. We only had nine customers, but we both sold over fifty dollars worth of goods and both got orders. It is very exciting. Crocheting is something I can do and still be disabled. It does not take a lot of energy and uses my time creatively. I am a crochet addict.

I love the colors in this pillow


Hobo bag


Other bags. Some are made with hemp.





Basket made with hemp and leather.




This is suppose to be a basket, but everyone kept putting it on their heads. It finnaly sold as a hat.


My shawls.

Noni

The Noni worked incredibly well on my chest pain. I just take a tablespoon in the morning and one at night. In two days my pain was gone.

I am not going to go off of it to prove that it is the Noni that has caused my relief. That is what my husband has purposed. I am just believing that God had me find the information on Noni and it works.

The Noni does not take away all my pain, but I do believe that it has taken away a lot of the swelling in my ligaments so the pain is reduce. Well, in my chest it is gone. I did notice that if I am late in taking the Noni, I begin to feel a bit of tightening in my chest. Maybe, that is prof enough for my husband.

I suggest you give it a try if you have pain. I got mine at Walmart and it is not expensive.

So, I thank God for His wisdom and grace in leading me to Noni. Praise you Father.

Just one more Thing

I have a diagnosis. Costochondritis. What??? Oh, yea!!! Isn't that a fun name.

If you want to learn more or understand this one, here is a link.

The pain is horrible. Sometimes, it is so extreme, that I can't walk. When I take a step it just drives the pain through my body.

I have started a herbal substance for pain relief. It is called Noni. I hope it works, because the pain medication has stopped working and if I go for stronger medicine, I will not be able to function at all. Although, sleep is good, when you hurt this bad.

God is so good, all this is drawing me closer to Him. I can only depend on Him to provide for me. To sustain me, to deliver me, to heal me. I have a great God, who I can call upon, at anytime, and He will comfort me.

Thank you God.

Still Waiting

Saw the Doctor on Friday. But, no news. Did another ekg and then ex-rays. Hopefully, I will find out, something, today.

Turns out, that when I went to the hospital, they gave me a pain mediciene, that is the strongest pain medicine know to man. It certainly worked. But, only for a short time. Now they have me on Percecet. I sleep a lot and am no good as posting.

I am copying some of what I wrote today on my other blog, because, I am way to droggy to spell or think right. I hope what I wrote shows some of where I am at right now.


If this does not make a lot of sense, it is because I am still on some heavy pain medicine. First, thank all of you for your response to my last post. I was over joyed with the love that poured out from my brother and sisters. Many even came over from my daughters blog, A Homesteading Neophyte, to encourage me. I am so grateful.

I saw my doctor on Friday and still do not know anything. She just put me on stronger pain medicine. So, I sleep a lot. Then I wake up and the pain is too much, so I take a pill and sleep. I have, however, been doing a lot of crocheting. But, I find my self waking up, frozen in time, in the middle of a stitch.

The Christian response to my flare up of Lupus has been diverse. Some say, "it is an attack from Satan". Some, just except it as part of living in this world. Others, believe I need to search myself for a sin. Then there are the ones who see it as a trial.

As to it being an attack, could be. My ministry is growing again and I usually start to have trouble when that happens. There was something in my house yesterday. It was visible not only to me, but to my husband, which is unusual. It showed itself several times. My thought, at first, was that, it was my medicine causing me to see things, but when my husband saw it, I knew different. But, is this because of an attack? I see, feel and smell things a lot. Could be something besides an attack. Need to pray to find out about this thing in my home.

Is the flare up of Lupus just because we live in a fallen world. This could be also. The cause of Lupus is not really known. They have their suspicions, but no real answers. I may be genetically disposed to Lupus. Which could be a curse. Of course, many, including myself, have prayed to break a curse of Lupus. But, have not seen the results of that breaking. Whether, it be from the environment, genetics or self inflicted abuse of my body, this world has a lot to offer in the way of sickness and pain. But, through the power of God these things are overcomed.

Is it a sin? I, always, have sin. Why, would this be from a sin, now. In the past, God has always shown me a sin that needs to be addressed. When the sin is exposed, God and I usually take care of it and I walk free from that particular sin. So, why would one sin be treated any different from the other. God always has my attention, He talks to me, this should be no different. Now that I write this, I realize that I have not even asked God "why".

The last time, I was sick, He did not give me a "why". He just told me that I would be sick of two years. I did not know if I would die after those two years or be healed. But, it was two years and I never did ask "why". Do, I need to know "why"? I don't think I do. The out come of the last time was amazing. God used Lupus, to minister in amazing ways. Ways that would not have been possible before Lupus. So, I'm not sure I'll be asking "why".

Is, this reacourance of Lupus a trail? Well, I don't know. If I don't ask, then, I don't know. God, pretty much knows, that I am His, no matter what. But, I never exactly, know the mind of God. After all, His ways are not my ways.

So, with all the different theories and suggestions, I listen, pray and ponder and then let God be God in my life. I do fight, because, I am not one to take anything lying down. But, I also, try to walk the path that God has laid out before me with dignity and peace.

Well, my hour is up. You see, dear reader, I have one hour from the time I wake up till the medicine and pain over take me and I am lost to this world. I hope this post makes sense to you. I understand it completely. Of course, I am living in a different zone than you might be. My world is a bit blurred right now.

I am totally blessed by you, my dear readers.